I always tease my Mom by saying she doesn’t like fat people. She says she just doesn’t like what they are doing to their bodies. I call that as bullshit and stick by my original statement. Ok…maybe not…she is/was a health professional and yadda yadda yadda…blah blah blah. Either way, once I put on a bunch of my weight I had to deal with her monitoring and commenting on my plate. I forgot how I got her to stop…we never fight so there wasn’t a huge complex but it was either her or my brother that got her to understand that I will do it on my own on my own time and that shit isn’t helping. So for the past few years Mom has bit her lip.
Until I mention that I don’t do as well when I visit home…AHHHH!! I have awoken the judgmental food beast! If she wasn’t my Mother I swear I would have said “Fcuk up off my plate dammit!” like seriously. I am hyper sensitive (yes i ACKNOWLEDGE IT) when people talk about “cheating” on a diet. HUBDEUIHBSJKBUIE! I AM NOT ON A DIET! I am learning how to eat like a regular human being and sometimes a regular human being wants a damn donut! I am ALWAYS on plan. ALWAYS…I always track and I am on my shit. Last night I saw that there was some leftover Halloween candy…a Snickers mini (4 pieces) is 5 points…I saved 20 of my weeklies for this trip home…I CAN HAVE SOME DAMN CHOCOLATE! Don’t food shame me! I eventually had to just tell my Mom that I have lost 70 pounds and I now know how to manage my food better without the comments of a peanut gallery. I also had to point out that she ate more food yesterday than I did
Lesson learned: keep my food struggles to myself.
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